Conflicted

So I had said before I had Bradley I wanted 2-3 kids then when Bradley was born I said no more Bradley can be an only child. But now as Bradley gets older I find myself wanted another one. I miss Bradley being that baby. And I think is it really that good being an only child. He loves babies i mean loves them. I was the oldest of 4 and I love it. I love having my sisters and brother. And if we were to have more I don't want to get pregnant right now, but I want them to be some what close in age. So there are more points to having another child but there are negatives too. Some of the negatives are could we afford another child. What if Bradley hates having a baby around. I'm still losing more weight just to gain it back. I am going to start school on August or January.Plus on top of all that James says no way but he is starting to warm up to the idea maybe in a year and half or 2. So I guess I'm just conflicted on this. I really have not talked to much about it.