Why?

So why has Bradley been throwing up lately errrr, today he was laying down about to fall asleep for his nap and he starts to get out of his bed so i go and pick him up and he threw up all over me and there was a ton. Sure enough i was bringing him to the bathroom and he threw up again and then threw for the 3rd time after i took his clothes off. I'm thinking in my head i don't know where this comes from because he is eating a little here and there., i actually started a journal of what he eats so i know and i can show his doctor because I'm sure people think i am crazy saying the things he eats. So who knows whats going on in that little body of his.

So much for the diet i was on lol i had chicken with bacon and then brownies tonight lol i guess harder workout tomorrow. i keep thinking to myself when i look in the mirror "Helllloooooo you are so gross your son is 16 months yet you have not fit into your old clothes" this whole weight thing is really taking a big toll on me that's like all i think about i would Rather look like 85lbs at 5'1'' than what i am at 186 yes i said it my weight i don't care. so I'm trying to loss the weight it seems to be impossible i guess they say slow and steady. and i think back when i was in high school and i was 140 i was actually considered overweight I'm like are you fucking kidding me i wore a size 5/7 but i was overweight. my healthy weight is 125. yeah i would love to be that with no extra skin( thanks Bradley for the lovely stretch marks and extra skin) why is that the girl that weigh next to nothing gain there weight during pregnancy and within a month they have no mommy tummy and they look the babysitter because you would never guess that they just had a baby. and on top of that they loose all there weight in a record amount of time but they have no stretch marks wtf???? well off of this topic

so I'm looking back on pictures of last Easter gees Bradley was so small makes me ALMOST want more almost being the key word.

First Blog

So, I have decided to start a blog. The reason I'm starting a blog is the simple fact I would love to have somewhere to remember all the memories of of son, and to de-stress. So I have made a choice to go to school for a nursing but i have never went to college and this will be a nice change...... hopefully. I don't want to look back on this time in my life and regret that I never went to school. Well Bradley is getting so big he has to be at least 25 pounds now and of course he has to carried everywhere which is killing me. But like I always say I would rather have him be attached to me than a daycare worker. But sometimes I guess I wanna just scream he is on my hip moring while making breakfast on here for lunch and lately he has been on there at the dinner table so let's just hope that will let up soon. lol
James (My hubby) and I are doing good. He has beenworking alot to keep up with all the bills fun fun. So we try to spend time toegether as much as possible. But at times its just not possible.
well off to bed beacuses its 230am night