Why?

So why has Bradley been throwing up lately errrr, today he was laying down about to fall asleep for his nap and he starts to get out of his bed so i go and pick him up and he threw up all over me and there was a ton. Sure enough i was bringing him to the bathroom and he threw up again and then threw for the 3rd time after i took his clothes off. I'm thinking in my head i don't know where this comes from because he is eating a little here and there., i actually started a journal of what he eats so i know and i can show his doctor because I'm sure people think i am crazy saying the things he eats. So who knows whats going on in that little body of his.

So much for the diet i was on lol i had chicken with bacon and then brownies tonight lol i guess harder workout tomorrow. i keep thinking to myself when i look in the mirror "Helllloooooo you are so gross your son is 16 months yet you have not fit into your old clothes" this whole weight thing is really taking a big toll on me that's like all i think about i would Rather look like 85lbs at 5'1'' than what i am at 186 yes i said it my weight i don't care. so I'm trying to loss the weight it seems to be impossible i guess they say slow and steady. and i think back when i was in high school and i was 140 i was actually considered overweight I'm like are you fucking kidding me i wore a size 5/7 but i was overweight. my healthy weight is 125. yeah i would love to be that with no extra skin( thanks Bradley for the lovely stretch marks and extra skin) why is that the girl that weigh next to nothing gain there weight during pregnancy and within a month they have no mommy tummy and they look the babysitter because you would never guess that they just had a baby. and on top of that they loose all there weight in a record amount of time but they have no stretch marks wtf???? well off of this topic

so I'm looking back on pictures of last Easter gees Bradley was so small makes me ALMOST want more almost being the key word.